When I was in college, I was unstoppable. Unstoppable. I just had this immense knowing that I could co-create whatever it was that I so desired. This was way before I learned about manifestation or any of the spiritual practices I embrace now.
This core wounding shifted how I saw myself. I was the one who was going to take over the world prior to this experience. I was vibrant, flirtatious, and full of laughter.
But as this betrayal was happening, I started to get quieter and quieter to the point where I started to not speak much. I was so traumatized that for a number of years I was incredibly shy and fearful of everything. I was afraid of other people. I was afraid of other people yelling at me.
Even then I was a rebel with a cause, a cosmic warrior priestess. A part of my essence was encoded with the desire to move through hesitation, fear, and the unknown. I couldn’t meet fear face on when I thought I was going to get in trouble by loved ones, but I could meet fear face on when I was given a choice of paralysis or living life.
My love for travel runs deep and it’s due to my soul’s essence. I am a traveler at heart. My curious nature desires to learn more about other cultures. My insatiable appetite to support women around the world gives me the energy to explore new places and have intimate conversations with women so I may understand their desires, their hesitations, their challenges, their fears, their perspective, and the way they live their life. I’ve noticed women can be very different from one another and yet we are also so similar. Our fears and our desires unite us and can create strength as a collective which gives us the power to create change.
Nine months ago, on the sacred lands of Bali, I met Tiffany Scott at a women's retreat. Little did I know that, that encounter would be the beginning of an extraordinary partnership.
I had been yearning for deep collaboration; to find a partner that could be the catalyst for my visionary self to truly be seen and encouraged to take flight.
I knew the Goddess was creating something big, I could feel the shift of energy in my system as I weaves new patterns with the Goddess without knowing where the threads were taking me. I could sense it was big and I was ready.
This past Tuesday and Wednesday I held a Sacred Circle Temple Gathering online. There were faces of sisters I've known for four years and sisters whom I have just had the privilege of getting to know. Though I have been holding circle and virtual circles for years now, I was extremely nervous.
Nervous not because I wasn't prepared or because I thought the women who carved out time to attend wouldn't enjoy it, but rather because I was showing up in a new form. Showing other sides of me that I haven't shared as openly. There was so much within me that was ready to burst open.
There are so many lessons this wise goddess has to share with us.
First, there are moments in time when you need to shed all of yourself, piece-by-piece-by-piece. It feels like you are dying. And from that place, transformation can occur and then you can put yourself back together again, piece-by-piece-by-piece, restructuring your entire system.
You are now upgraded and whole and divine and you have the ability to see yourself in more of a light than you ever had before because you powerfully went through the excavation process.
Let’s talk about this idea of being in the transmutation process; when you are going through deep transformation.
For many of us, what I notice is when we are in sacred practice, we begin to drop into our dreams, we get very clear about our desires, we create the sacred rituals that will hold it, and we tend to it everyday. We are really committed to this space of devotion and this place of trust.
But then, at some point, doubt creeps in. There comes a moment when we become frustrated and wonder if it is ever going to happen.
We desire immediate gratification. We wonder if it is misaligned. Maybe it’s not supposed to be, or maybe we are supposed to do something different, or redo it or start over.
I mean, to fully feel it in your bones? Or do you push it off to the side or ignore it, because badass goddesses aren’t supposed to feel negative emotions.
Well, my dear, I have another story to share with you. It’s a continuation of our journey with Isis, the powerful goddess of magic and giver of life.
In this week’s episode, I dive into her magnificent encounter with Ra to remind you that you are clever and resourceful. To inspire you to be the light warrior for all and stand up for what you value and believe in. We then return to the story of Isis, Osiris, and Set. Here we see Isis take on the full embodiment of the WILD woman, and who RAGES to RELEASE.
A healer, a medicine woman, a loving mother, a devoted wife, a proponent for all women, Isis is the first daughter of Geb, god of the Earth, and Nut, goddess of the Sky, and she had two brothers, Osiris and Set.
Later in life, Isis and Osiris fell in love and began to teach us the magical, potent alchemy of divine union, sacred partnership. This is the badass couple that truly exemplifies being in a relationship with grace.
Due to their unconditional love, their brother, Set, began to be consumed by jealousy...
Through the next 4 weeks, these stories will help us navigate life and business, providing us with some important teachings that open ourselves up to the powerful, soulful, feminine leaders that make up our essence.
Last month I went on a beautiful two week vacation with my partner and his family. It was a well rounded experience starting with Las Vegas where I stayed at the Bellagio and got to see Cirque du Soleil. We then hopped into a van and all 10 of us stayed in the Grand Canyon for a couple of days. The road trip was full of singing cowboy songs and gawking at the astonishing landscape. Our final destination was Zion National Park. We rented a house and grounded into the heat for a week.
We are all connected, each one of us, to each other as well as our ancestors and our future generations.
So, what if, collectively, instead of making hasty decisions based on own self-understanding, or self-proclamation around what is true or not, what if we thought about each decision we made as a way to honor seven generations ahead of ourselves?
What if we took a moment to ask those that we trusted for information to help us make decisions that will affect ourselves and generations from now - to find the peace within, to find transformations that occur in others, and for our businesses to then evolve in ways that you couldn't possibly imagine?
That's the magic of the miracles that occur when you remember that you are what you have been waiting for.
I'm sharing a little secret with you. I find myself venturing outside during my work breaks breathing in the fresh air and enjoying the summer breeze. Quietly and covertly I'll place my hands by my side and whisper bold statements while embodying my fierce 5-year-old Wonder Woman. Then with a little smile I then skip back inside to continue my work.
Affirmations are more than random statements you repeat back to yourself every morning - without connection or emotion.
I just returned from a month of traveling which included a family vacation celebrating the 40th wedding anniversary of my partner’s parents.
As I unpack my bags, settle into a daily routine, and ground into my life at home, I come to realize how tired I am. My awareness system, which are made up of all my feelers and sensory thread, was turned on high in order for me to engage with all the people I came across on my travels. Now that I have returned to a quiet home, I can feel all my senses desiring to go within.
These moments of folding in do not need to fully impact your business.